人身的悲惨

时时刻刻盼望着完美的昨天，回望以过的阳光。

而今天的漂亮和美好次次都只能已错过了的风景，流过。

只怕慢步享受每一秒，就会失去生活的机会。

怕如果失去一步的进展，当发现人身逃跑了，我们拼命也追不上。

The Tragedy of Life

Forever longing for the perfection of yesterday, gazing backwards at past horizons.

Yet, again, and again, today's beauty and wonder can only slip past like a scenery missed.

Always paralysed by fear: if we slow our steps to appreciate the view, we'll miss our chance to live the moment.

Afraid that missing even a single moment, our lives will elude us, and by the time we realise, it'll be too late.

ps. I know the translation is a little rough, but then again the original Chinese probably is too D:

Musings

My blog has been very neglected as of late.

Its shocking that I haven't posted since August but to be honest every time I thought about posting something, I either didn't have time or didn't have any inspiration.

Life has been a tumultuous mix of fun, sadness, disappointment, anger and stress.
I feel like life has been passing me by and despite always believing in no regrets, I've had an awful lot of them. I feel like I'm watching the days spindle through and even though there are brief moments of brilliance every so often, I spend more time being an onlooker to joy than living in the moment. Hopefully, summer will help me move past that.

I'm very hesitant about turning it into a personal blog, even though this is what it seems to be becoming.

My main reason is that I treasure the privacy of being "anonymous" on the internet, even though most of my followers are friends in real life.

But this blog started because I wanted an outlet for my creative side that my daily life has no room for so turning it into a personal blog would defeat the purpose of that. Added onto the fact that generally, when I'm happy, I'm too busy enjoying being happy so I know that I'd probably end up being very rash and use the blog to vent my anger and sadness which I'm sure, wouldn't end well.

I'm also thinking of starting a new blog HAH, (because of course, if I don't have time for my current one, I'll sooo have time for two) because I've had a lot of fun following fashion blogs and beauty blogs and I think a haul blog would be nice for me to keep track of my shopping addiction and use it productively.

Sunny Skies

^-^

As the days are warming,

my smiles are wider, my skip is lighter, and my bounce is higher.

I'm waiting impatiently for the heart-warming prickle of a hot hot sun,

and the relief of a cool breeze in the scarce shade of a 30 degree day.

For the sand sticking between saline drenched toes

and the bronzed glow of an unwanted tan.

Summer, you've been playing hard to get for far to long.

You're toying with my feelings and messing with my health.

Keeping me far too keen,

my moment's joy whisked away by the remnants of a chilly winter breezes.

But never mind.

When you're here,

all will be forgiven,

because when you're here,

all is right.

Sorry sorry :(
I'm such a bad blogger, far too sporadic.

Overwhelmed

The briefest moment,

respite.

A luxury of the carefree.

Pure and untouched by the cacophony

of the furrowed brow.

When the last tremor of the body stills,

the gasping breath eases,

and the lids lay down gently,

it slips off to a peaceful place.

Where smiles are not necessary,

and tears do not flow.

Turtles ♥

OMGGGGGGG LULZ.

Seriously. I laughed so hard.

Thrifting (and Shopping) Adventures

:D

Another blog update.. and yet again, no creative juices are dripping :(

(That sounds so wildly gross and inappropriate, I apologise)

But I received my fortnightly paycheck on Saturday and then ended up getting a little extra cash from covering a friend's shift on Sunday!

I was super ecstatic to find that the hole in my bank account (I usually try and maintain my account above a specific amount) had now been filled and with a little room to move.

(*cough* splurge *cough*)

On Sunday night, Daniel, his cousin and I also decided to hit up Crown after my first [insert their last name here] family dinner.

For the first time, I didn't lose and I didn't break even!

Yay! I only upped $40 actually haha but then again, my buy-in was at $30.

So obviously, my weekend involved shopping, to make up for the lack-thereof these past few weeks.

- Boys, this is your chance to escape before it gets boring -

Saturday

Shirt for work

A bra also for work (kidding)

Sunday

Dress (for work)

A non-cropped black blazer (FINALLY) - it also has some pretty cool detail on the back

THEN TODAY I WENT THRIFTING.

Aaaaaaaaah so much fun!

I found something at every single op shop we entered (only 3 though)

So the purchases in order:

A silver clutch style purse, with a gold chain

(I can't wait to wear this clubbing or out to dinner, I can picture it hanging off my LBD-wearing self who has one foot out the door)

A dusty pink blouse

(Of the floaty-with-strips-to-tie-into-a-bow kind)

Another blazer

(Checked, very vintage Rory-Gilmore-journalist-esque)

Two books :D

(To add to the overflowing "to read" pile that I have garnered this holidays)

Anywhoo, I apologise for yet another post that has no artistic direction or journalistic flair whatsoever...

Mayhap it will return once I purchase that cute-but-too-sheer romper and beautiful vintage full length skirt that I've been eyeing.

Winter is for Unbearably Cold.

It seems like I've lost my depth, when it comes to my writing at least. I have not had any brilliant (or not so brilliant) ideas for a creative writing post so this is just going to be a chunk of word vomit - not of the nicely written kind - regaling the happenings in my (not so) exciting life.

Winter break is already in the process of slipping away but I still do not feel rested :(

The first week or two were fast flying, with plans made for almost everyday and gaps filled with impromptu outings..fun fun fun :D

Sadly, that puts a lot of strain on your bank account when you're only earning a day's worth of income per week despite supposedly being employed in 2 -3 places...

So I became a homebody and have been spending a lot of lovely time with Daniel. I really should get out and about but I'm too lazy. It really doesn't help that half the time, the day is almost over by the time I get up out of bed because I don't have the foresight to consider sleeping early to wake up for a productive day.

I actually still enjoy myself a lot but its starting to get boring, though we did manage to squeeze in a game of Monopoly today and then proceed to discuss the reason why we shouldn't play with other people: nepotism (of the non-family kind).

If someone has ANY suggestions for what I can do to entertain myself (besides watch dramas which I actually haven't even had time for) shoot them my way! But be careful in your enthusiasm because I really do not want bruises like the ones I got from paintball thanks to Daniel and some randoms.

Whinge time!

Stupid Tiger Airways has gone and ruined my exciting (almost) trip to QLD with some of my girlies next week and by ruined, I mean sinking its teeth in, tearing a gash and shaking it until the entire plan is ripped to shreds.

Stupid stupid employer who shalt not be named for professional purposes who happens to be taking 4 months to finally get my contracts in order, and arrange for me to train so I can ACTUALLY WORK AND EARN MONEY. Seriously, they recently just hired 2 more girls...who will be trained with me. Really? I wait 4 months then have to train with girls who have only had to wait 2 weeks? Nothing against the girls, I'm just rageragerage about it.

Grumble grumble grumble.

I have officially been reinstated as gym junkie: something good came from my being too late for my first Bikram Yoga class (which I'd already put off for literally a year). I have no idea what effect gym is having but I definitely feel better about myself - despite that I wake up sore most mornings from my decidedly insane new-found dedication to gyming.

ALSO. Something that made em very happy..which I didn't even buy in the end was the cutest bright orange purse. It was bright a la Quirky Explosion.

The straps were as long as your average satchel and it was super structured - 50s style but more geometric.

Ohmygod I was so in love.

Daniel then proceeded to tell me it was disgusting and ugly but that it suited me. "What, cause I'm ugly too?".

So I walked away from it...I'm not sure if I regret it or not but it made me happy!

And thats all the crap I feel I need to subject you all through :D
Happy Holidays!

- Edit -

I just went through my stats and realized there has been (surprisingly) some traffic on my blog recently..minimal but considering my inactivity shocking anyway.

The hilarious part is that the traffic sources listed are sites about dieting and diet plans BAHAHA.

No, honestly, that's so comical.
I'm terrible at dieting..

(I have attempted it on many an occasion in the simplest form - stop eating crap)

I never really last long, not because of a lack of perseverance but because of a lack of will.
I always start it and realize that I'm a perfectly healthy size, and leaning toward skinny so why bother?
My metabolism compensates for the majority of the garbage I consume, and laziness prevents me from over-snacking exorbitantly so dieting never quiet goes to plan for me.
Believe me, I thank my metabolism everyday.