Tightropes and Rickety Bridges

Uncertainties?

Been there, done that.
Yet we can't just untick a box and opt to "unsubscribe" from them,
its just not that easy.

And if you haven't got any,
you're not living life,
you're not feeling.

We try to peer into the future,
but all we see is a fog so dense that its practically opaque,
we scan the horizon for glowing embers,
signs of an imminent but distant waiting bliss,
and we quiver in terror of shadows
that we try so hard to ignore.

But its okay,
we're taking a risk,
we're trying.

And as we step forward,
one foot in front of the other,
and teeter across the shaking bridge,
we inch closer and closer to the other side.
Who knows if the grass will be greener?
But its worth a shot isn't it?

Because these trials, obstacles and hurdles can be the path to overwhelming gratification.

Dying Days

The past week has been,
well,
busy.

And stressful.
As someone extremely unaccustomed to stress,
it wasn't particularly pleasant.

I became someone I don't enjoy being at certain point throughout the week.
And the hysterical edge that accompanied my driven-near-the-edge-to-the-borderline-of-completely-not-caring was certainly not a pretty sight to behold.

You can resent me all you like for not being one who feels the pressure much,
but it has its low lights too.
Once you stop caring,
there's nothing that's driving you anymore.

So, at the same time,
the week was somewhat reassuring.
Knowing that my uncertainties do still matter to me.
That despite what I might think,
time is running out,
and I will (hopefully) sprint the last stretch
and make up the lagging distance.

Its a little worrying though,
I didn't do all that much productive or effective preparation for the week.
But I made it through, and that's what counts I guess.

It was quite enjoyable week despite all the kafuffle,
it definitely housed one of my more memorable nights,
and I can feel the year ending.

I'm looking forward to it.

We're willing go the extra mile,
holding to our hopes of the dazzling and imminent future,
to reach our destination.
So be it.

For the lovely few who follow this blog, apologies for my lack of posts, it seems I run out of things to say after my run of biweekly updates. This dry spell will probably last a while given the nature of the next few months.
This post is crap but you'll have to make do I guess :P

Serendipity

serendipity (ˌsɛrənˈdɪpɪtɪ)
— n
	the faculty of making fortunate discoveries by accident

And what blog would be complete without a post about it?

When all else fails to make you smile, serendipity will.
Whether it be coming across something gorgeous that screams your name, on sale,
or meeting someone you never intended, but could no longer live without,
serendipity is the warm glow of a firefly at night.
Small,
insignificant,
but infinitely more beautiful than anything else.

But you wouldn't have stumbled into the dewy field that night,
had you not jumped that fence with the siren red prohibition sign.
If you hadn't snuck out through the window,
and slipped into the night.

Because everything is only beautiful by comparison,
so if you haven't looked,
how can you be satisfied?

You won't find serendipity,
unless you chance upon it.
Give it a chance,
take a risk.
Let life take you where you've never been before.